2011 Life changes, so do we.

I wish I had more time to devote to all of this. I pretty much gave up the fight and dissensions with the drug companies, and how premarin is made.


In 2007 I had surgery and lost 150 lbs and felt so much better! I learned how to grow my own foods, process them. Dry them, whatever! I can't even begin to tell you the difference on how much better I felt. I'm going to keep the blogs going for the past. I feel you learn from the past; and I never want to see 100% of my energy and time become bankrupt ever again. The best that I can claim from all those years is truly an education in farming, necessity, heart of the families of the farms..And the drug companies that lied and used them and left be when all the law suits hit and they were made to reduce their fields by over 65-75% that they never saw coming. I felt bad for the little guy farmer.. They never saw it coming. Again, the Pimps of the drug go away rich. And blameless! I go away knowing I tried to make a difference. My original Yahoo web site at the day of "take down" of Geocities end had over 6008340 looks and visits. Of that I walk away proud. They may have squelched me. But never silence. Never SILENCE!

In 1989 I started to work for DHS as a caregiver. Something I did part time and walked back and forth into and out of because of the NON-benefit package. The pay was just awful, and the work hard if you did what you were supposed to. (WORK for your client!)

I dotted my life with work as a flagger. (Highway construction, prevailing wages and major bridge construction) Worked as a outsource partner for Verizon wireless a couple of years or so.. Several customer service jobs I was not happy with or about. I'm hoping god will forgive me for working with the TB racing system as a pari-mutuel person. I learned some dirty secrets about the electronic system that I never want on my conscience again. I can't prove what I heard behind the glass screens and the bathroom hallway. But so many people lost money needlessly. If you are with a conscience at all...YOU'RE GONE from the employment..Do not pass go; DO NOT get your benefits. You're just gone. Soft touches were let go and their lives made a living hell.. They actually employ supervisors to do this. I just hope I have the day to confront my personal harpie. She and I have a date for a woman to woman extended talk.. Maybe take off the gloves? ( YES! PLEASE!)

So 2005 to 2008 I have had a great deal to reflect on where I am going at my age and did I want to continue working for companies that are hell bent on destroying their own American Sisters and Brothers. The lies and deceit from Market research were gut wrenching. I learned crap about the blue shield of Regence that will follow my soul for the rest of my life. I will never look at employers that support Republican values and needlessly hurt others as common place. I found a family business that was really great at smiling at you looking for the entire world as caring people.. Bullshitting us all that supported them. I learned that the more they smiled, the more they tried to convince us that they cared about the little guy.. The more they did not want us to look at the BIGGER picture. We on the phones were the minions of SATAN, and we were truly paid to lie and schmooze our way into getting pertinent info that helped Regence Health systems deny even more benefits. I was gladdened when I heard of all the class action suits of the people that were denied, and were judged to be wrongfully denied. The went after the bark blue giant and were WINNING! I was so proud.

I took that chance to leave my market research company PT on call job; and devote my time to getting my CNA in the years to come. I want to help fight FOR the correct health. Not be flogged by the mishandling of the benefits. I felt empowered for the first time in a long time. I was going in the right direction....FORWARD!

So in the end of 2010, I left the employment of ACTIDYNE.... They look like nice people, yes. Are they out for themselves...ABSOLUTELY! Do they lie to you on the phone, Oh yes! You'll never get the real story. I truly learned how to blur the gray line here. You want to trust these guys. Be warned. Yes, they seem like nice people. They are embedded in the community. But they are staunch Republican business people. They really DON'T want to see you get benefits. They want to see you be poor. They LOVE to play favorites, and see you scramble for a hand full of paid hours. It's sad to see how we all dogged each other for just 12 hours of work a week. There are times I wish I'd kept my mouth shut on people that were hurting them and the industry with improper handling of the info out or info in...It matters. But looking at it now. I was no better. I was hurting the same little guys I now watch over.

Now they have me as a mouth piece that shares how to squeeze the lies that they ask you. Learn how to help the little guy answer these questions and Null or Skew the data they actually want to collect. If all they get back is garbage data. Then they waste time and money. GOOD! maybe they will find another type of honest work to do. One can only hope?

2008 I became a full time caregiver, and have been pretty much working full time. I've done Hospice, and just plain cleaning privately. But my love of the job is to get someone motivated to stand out side of the box and do different stimuli. This is the year I will go through my feelings on why I want to help MAKE changes to the system.

Help my union sisters to keep our benefits and work so that our employers ( People we care for) keep THEIR benefits too! God we came so close to voting in so many mistakes in the Oregon Government. Good old Ted K was NOT a friend to the elderly and the mentally disabled. He was a minion too. The dirt on him and how little he felt about the programs fir Oregon health, were nightmarish and sad.

This is the year my sisters to find your heart and pen and keep you sword sheathed. But know where you put it at least... The pen IS mightier than the sword. But if they have a dagger in their boot, it does not hurt to have back up?

So, this year; I'll be sharing my heart privately here. (private blog Pass Word Protected) But my anger in the system publicly.

So much time has passed! I'm a new me!

I'm going to try to update this. So much has gone by, so much has changed. I dissolved the PMUbabytrek. Not only did they shelve the person that put their home up as collateral, and lie to me. I found out that several of my BOD's were less than honest, and had pasts that could hurt our mission. At the point I was at in 2004...I trash canned the whole leg of what I started and just walked away. I have my home, My dignity, and learned how to make my home and assets untouchable to those looking for a free ride. I learned a vital lesson...I'm really Gullible! I'm easily motivated with praise, and I need to harden my shell....

Addendum

A long time has passed since I started this and though things are still sharp in my brain. My life is so damm busy it's had to find time to continue.
I had one or 2 hard starts at web email lists. Some to find that MOST people, are out for them selves only. And in no way is the injustice of the immanent death of a foal any way a cement to help one another. Even from people that are their own Country/ Province members This endeavor was not just about an innocent foal. It was about UNDERSTANDING. That and Good Common sense was in short order. I found out that I was hormonal, hot-headed, and could easily be led to my own slaughter..I could Empathise with these babies. Most of these people with their hand out to "learn" were cloaked in velvet to hide a very sharp demise.

From all walks of life, all had varying degrees of malcontent towards the farmers. Many it was crystal clear that money over rode their hatred.. It was still there. I can completely understand their hesitation in dealing with the average horse lover. They were completely veiled.

So when My visit of 2000 in Canada was made, and I was informed the farm had a phone call that was reminiscent of a bomb threat.. I could truly understand. Little did I know, that these same people worked really hard to screw up anything that entailed people working as a group that was apart from them. Anything that entailed forgiveness and understanding towards someone that had been duped or forged into a lifestyle by birth of ones great grand parents. It was your life.. You just went a long with it.

This I understand because I was a nurseryman's daughter. If I were the youngest son. I would have fixed Lawnmowers and developed landscaping skills far surpassing what I grew up with. So I understand what happens with second and third generation family.

So with Zest of the first internet group. I learned. I trusted a core of people and then it blew sky high. I was so duped that I lost every Internet site I originated. At this time there was no concrete legality of "INTELLECTUAL Property" I just did not have the monies to fight to get the first one back. Though this ones co-list owner was Canadian. She took all that was mine. Not being well loved for her Attitude, I'm glad she got back a bit of what she did to me. It hurt to see my original idea bastardized. She was in this 100% for profit and of that there was NO DOUBT.

The list went on under a diffrerent name and a small Board of directors..Most of which knew for years and trusted. I thought after a year I knew what the pitfalls were. And we were willing to go ahead and try to save a handful or 2 a year.
And though I'm still not in good health. I hand what little reins over to someone I was sure I trusted at least 3 people I thought I could trust. The story will unfold: But I will leave you with this epiphany...There is no trust when it comes to money, and power of running something/anything. In short, the only person that CAN "Screw you" is the only one you allow in to your circle to do so! You'd think I'd have known better the first time? Noooooo.

So with great zest, we save about 8 the first year and try to incorporate. There will most likely be side posts with interjections on wherfors and whys. But the meat and potatoes go up here and I will expand in side posts. ok? So with this I will go back and paint in my room...

((HUGZ))

How does one get info from mouths sewn shut?

Ok at this point we're one for one and counting. I check one of the 15 web boards I go to and lo and behold, I have an anon post. (Whoopeeee!)

We e-mail back and forth and finally, we are making headway. I'm not sure weather it's my disclosure of living in NY or that we might have been related. But I get this phone number, and he said to call in the next 25 minutes and that his wife would need to drive him to town soon.
We get to talking, and we realize that he knows my Grand Parents in Maine. He thinks he knew My Dad, and when he said he was an opinionated cuss that you can't tell much. Regretfully, I admit he might just KNOW my dad after all!

We talked all of that 20 some odd minutes, and my calling card was wasted. I promised to call him tomorrow.

Wow! A new way to rant and share pictures. I'm Havin IT!

Hey looky here! I found a way to create a web board entity, and it's 2 way...Yea!~



First of all let me give you some history.

I am now 48 years old and when I joined the big wide Internet, it was a welcome place and people were fairly honest and decent..Some still are. There are all kinds of need full people and animals out there and I latched on to one and held a death grip. I started out locally, and found there were much competition and oh so much back biting.. For goodness sakes they were all just auction horses! Most skinny and un-handled.. Too many people doing things the way they think it should be done instead of thinking about how it would better serve the horse... I knew there had to be a better way. This was way too one sided, and just wrong.

Upon the winter of 1996, I was donating my time to a group of people with lofty dreams about transporting horses to better homes, if there was someone waiting to love and care about it. Great! Right? Well it has been said that the road to Hell has been paved by good intentions, and this is just one of those occasions that I'd say that I believed it. There were a lot of people helping one another to gain livestock. Not all of them had the right housing or general know how. I know the hearts were in the right places. But the needs of the horses were not even fathomed.

Upon a winter storm of January 1997, the head of this Transportation group that was mostly not- for- profit organization. Decided that we needed to look into a matter that came into her email. What in essence happened, is that a horse e-group sent her an alarm about some horses that were in Canada and there supposed to be freezing to death? She asked me to help her research this. I did have a contact that I nurtured from a horse chat group. Her name is not published but she was an Animal Constable and hubby worked for the Canadian Mounted Police and the division that deals with cruelty issues large spectrum.

The woman I will call Cathy, did some research for me and the area she thought was in question was in Western Alberta, and the horses were not freezing to death since the ice storm passed, She related that a lot of open range animals die.

Most Pmu’s (At this time I had no idea what one was.. but I was researching right?) Are housed in barns. The yearling foals that are not yet old enough to breed yet are released to the ranges. They get fed, and the ranchers send out water..No profits can be made from dead animals. Right?

She went on to educate me on the processes, and I kind of kept it to myself about the foals each year. She explained a lot about the history, and I can understand why the industry does this. I continued to find info and asked he that if I had someone willing to come up and get some of those foal-sickles, could she get the Founder this info. Reluctantly, she did and arranged for Missy Moen to come up, and at this point I was cut out from the loop. And I awaited emails for the coming 3 weeks.

Those emails did not happen. I did however; get a rather testy call from my contact (Cathy). Oh my god! Why did I let you send this woman? Did you, or did you not, tell me she was a decent human being? Oh Donna! This woman is coming up here shouting and calling names. You should see this. She has not a clue! Please don’t ever ask this of me again. This woman is a lunatic!

I think I ate about a pound of humble pie, and apologized up one continent and down the other. This was no way to help anyone..
At least, Cathy told her all that it would take to get these babies
Home once she paid 300 apiece. Cathy was nice enough to tell her about all the taxes and fee’s and what is now known as a broker fee of about $200 After all the vet work was done.

Once she completed the math and they sent her down the road where she promptly spent the next week getting lost with a horse trailer in tow. She ended up NOT Getting those babies but leaving a trail of pissed off people in her wake.

What did I learn from this? Hum! Could be you get more learning Done with your mouth closed and your hand out, than you do with sword unsheathed. I hit the chat rooms, the web sites and this is where the blog history starts another chapter..Tomorrow


At this point I hit the web boards and talk to anyone that would give me leads, I get a lot of dead ended streets and a few with water leads. But, leads are leads; right? At this pont, I'm spending about 20 minutes a call minimum. Some calls end as soon as they know I was American and a woman and they were'nt going to make 10 foalsget sold this call. I finally get one gal whose brother worked at a PMU barn who actually wanted to talk! OHMYGOD...He's actually polite and decent and he's really interested in what my "angle is" What is in it for me, who's going to come down and get 5 or more babies? Did I have hard answers at this point..No. I told him how I got involved, and I wanted more truth than I was seeing on the internet. I know there had to be more info. Peta could not be right on this 100% People establish bonds with animals, even the cave man did!