I wish I had more time to devote to all of this. I pretty much gave up the fight and dissensions with the drug companies, and how premarin is made.
In 2007 I had surgery and lost 150 lbs and felt so much better! I learned how to grow my own foods, process them. Dry them, whatever! I can't even begin to tell you the difference on how much better I felt. I'm going to keep the blogs going for the past. I feel you learn from the past; and I never want to see 100% of my energy and time become bankrupt ever again. The best that I can claim from all those years is truly an education in farming, necessity, heart of the families of the farms..And the drug companies that lied and used them and left be when all the law suits hit and they were made to reduce their fields by over 65-75% that they never saw coming. I felt bad for the little guy farmer.. They never saw it coming. Again, the Pimps of the drug go away rich. And blameless! I go away knowing I tried to make a difference. My original Yahoo web site at the day of "take down" of Geocities end had over 6008340 looks and visits. Of that I walk away proud. They may have squelched me. But never silence. Never SILENCE!
In 1989 I started to work for DHS as a caregiver. Something I did part time and walked back and forth into and out of because of the NON-benefit package. The pay was just awful, and the work hard if you did what you were supposed to. (WORK for your client!)
I dotted my life with work as a flagger. (Highway construction, prevailing wages and major bridge construction) Worked as a outsource partner for Verizon wireless a couple of years or so.. Several customer service jobs I was not happy with or about. I'm hoping god will forgive me for working with the TB racing system as a pari-mutuel person. I learned some dirty secrets about the electronic system that I never want on my conscience again. I can't prove what I heard behind the glass screens and the bathroom hallway. But so many people lost money needlessly. If you are with a conscience at all...YOU'RE GONE from the employment..Do not pass go; DO NOT get your benefits. You're just gone. Soft touches were let go and their lives made a living hell.. They actually employ supervisors to do this. I just hope I have the day to confront my personal harpie. She and I have a date for a woman to woman extended talk.. Maybe take off the gloves? ( YES! PLEASE!)
So 2005 to 2008 I have had a great deal to reflect on where I am going at my age and did I want to continue working for companies that are hell bent on destroying their own American Sisters and Brothers. The lies and deceit from Market research were gut wrenching. I learned crap about the blue shield of Regence that will follow my soul for the rest of my life. I will never look at employers that support Republican values and needlessly hurt others as common place. I found a family business that was really great at smiling at you looking for the entire world as caring people.. Bullshitting us all that supported them. I learned that the more they smiled, the more they tried to convince us that they cared about the little guy.. The more they did not want us to look at the BIGGER picture. We on the phones were the minions of SATAN, and we were truly paid to lie and schmooze our way into getting pertinent info that helped Regence Health systems deny even more benefits. I was gladdened when I heard of all the class action suits of the people that were denied, and were judged to be wrongfully denied. The went after the bark blue giant and were WINNING! I was so proud.
I took that chance to leave my market research company PT on call job; and devote my time to getting my CNA in the years to come. I want to help fight FOR the correct health. Not be flogged by the mishandling of the benefits. I felt empowered for the first time in a long time. I was going in the right direction....FORWARD!
So in the end of 2010, I left the employment of ACTIDYNE.... They look like nice people, yes. Are they out for themselves...ABSOLUTELY! Do they lie to you on the phone, Oh yes! You'll never get the real story. I truly learned how to blur the gray line here. You want to trust these guys. Be warned. Yes, they seem like nice people. They are embedded in the community. But they are staunch Republican business people. They really DON'T want to see you get benefits. They want to see you be poor. They LOVE to play favorites, and see you scramble for a hand full of paid hours. It's sad to see how we all dogged each other for just 12 hours of work a week. There are times I wish I'd kept my mouth shut on people that were hurting them and the industry with improper handling of the info out or info in...It matters. But looking at it now. I was no better. I was hurting the same little guys I now watch over.
Now they have me as a mouth piece that shares how to squeeze the lies that they ask you. Learn how to help the little guy answer these questions and Null or Skew the data they actually want to collect. If all they get back is garbage data. Then they waste time and money. GOOD! maybe they will find another type of honest work to do. One can only hope?
2008 I became a full time caregiver, and have been pretty much working full time. I've done Hospice, and just plain cleaning privately. But my love of the job is to get someone motivated to stand out side of the box and do different stimuli. This is the year I will go through my feelings on why I want to help MAKE changes to the system.
Help my union sisters to keep our benefits and work so that our employers ( People we care for) keep THEIR benefits too! God we came so close to voting in so many mistakes in the Oregon Government. Good old Ted K was NOT a friend to the elderly and the mentally disabled. He was a minion too. The dirt on him and how little he felt about the programs fir Oregon health, were nightmarish and sad.
This is the year my sisters to find your heart and pen and keep you sword sheathed. But know where you put it at least... The pen IS mightier than the sword. But if they have a dagger in their boot, it does not hurt to have back up?
So, this year; I'll be sharing my heart privately here. (private blog Pass Word Protected) But my anger in the system publicly.
